Like moths, we are drawn in by the light

It has been months since I have even glanced at this site.. So much has changed, so many progressions have occurred. I have finished school. I am painting steadily. I have recorded new piano work. I am in a new relationship. I have become closer than ever with a select few people, and I treasure their friendship more than any friendships I've ever possessed.

I suppose where I am at is happiness; though life has it's daily struggles I am content with where I am at. I want to advance in several areas [better job, move out, new car, continue with my book, etc.] and I plan to do most if not all of those things by the end of 2010. I can't believe I will be turning 24, I recall my 16th birthday as if it were days ago. I feel as if I am still so very youthful inside, still excited at the sight of a creature I can capture if only for a few seconds to examine it. And at other times I feel so much older than I really am. The wear and tear of some of the more traumatic events that have happened in my life, I fear has taken their toll. Even though I attempt to avoid being negative, it's hard to be chipper 24/7.

I still have nightmares about Grandpas accident. It's difficult to deal with that. It's scary to know I have one Grandparent left... and I constantly worry for my mother's health as well. [If she doesn't stop falling down those damn stairs, I'm not sure what she's going to do. Can't accomplish much with broken limbs.]

There will be more to say later. For now, this is all.


MAB